i now truely know what i want and what i really need to do. will sacrifice all the onerous events and playful thoughts. matured after what happened this few weeks of undergoing constant endless flow of problems. but it has really enlighten me about things i thought is prudent to delay till i'm older. but my dreams and aspiration are all in front of me, such opportunity i will not forgo. the opportunity is given to everyone but is how you alter and configure it to suit one. and you are given a choice to capitulate or resist it. i have so much backing and furtherance from people around me, so i'm obligated in another way.